Showing posts with label broken hearts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label broken hearts. Show all posts

Sunday, September 11, 2011

9/11 - a day to remember

9/11 has long been a tragic history in the life of every mankind. as who would ever forget the suicide attack made by the heartless terrorist with an end aim of destroying and burning pathways to world peace.

9/11 is indeed a day to remember, with same day last year, i recollect that this day was marked as an extraordinary day in my journey, as to others this day, their lives has ended, literally, while to others theirs has just begun, changed, renewed or reliven.

as to me 9/11 is everything ...as it was the beginning of all the first time experiences in my life and at the same time an ending of some dreams painful and blissful.

beginning - 9/11/10 - from a naivete, non-complaining, gullible, obsessive-compulsive and intuitive - introvert person who built walls to ward off people coming near the bench of my being i turned into slightly objective, risk taker and got out with that protective shelf i built,  i've explored, wandered and defiant to name a few. most of all, i've welcomed dream and dreaming with, found a wandering soulmate,  and pursued together mr. happy-ness and juggled with the ms. rare.

--this was also the day of my first open water experience in scuba diving, the life underwater --was the experience that i would never trade for anything and so with the thing that comes with it, i never planned nor expected it would happened and with arms wide open i embraced all the risk it entails. it didn't ask for my life once, but twice, thrice and more, yet it didn't not caused me to take aback. cause i believe that life is worth taking the risk.    


the ending - 9/11/11 - the trouble with finding happy-ness is the painful fact that it never lasts... i have known it long that in time comes goodbye, but i never knew it would be on the day with the same day when it begins... i hadn't had enough of having and giving, but time has not been my friend., it didn't gave me the chances i needed. and today, i turned and walked away from dreaming. waved goodbye to the soul in my mirror with love as my only provision. 

 9/11.

Thursday, September 8, 2011

hard time to forever

i'm having a hard time laying my thoughts recently, must have been that few days from now i'll be putting my views into new and different perspective, leaving behind the old and familiar things and routines in my daily waking hour...as the clock ticks it rings to me that i'm running short of time to do the things that need to be done, people and places that need to come and see, must have things thats been overlooked or discounted but mind it no more as to strive is futile. for the part that wasn't achieved nor get done, i'll leave it to fate and the good luck. time pass inevitably and i wish i could hold it to stop, so i would stay forever this way,but i won't either, for i know i wouldn't be happy anyway...it's just the thought of letting go and moving on thats hard to own up..
Je t'aime pour toujours...

Sunday, August 15, 2010

MUSICS ON HER SOLITARY NIGHTS …


…one night she was awakened by the sound of music, “I WANNA KNOW WHAT LOVE IS”..it keeps ringing in her ears (..so she figured it was just her ipod’s humming)..she thought she heard HIM singing beside her, coz the artist and His voice sound so alike (..is she dreaming?)

… the next song played “IRIS”, the lyrics ragged her.. she touched the other side of her bed and it was empty, so she pulled on the shawl to wrap her wintriness, she suddenly felt cold then, she embraced herself so tight....and realized that it was her solitude that chillin’ her ….then she heard goo goo dolls says..YEA, YOU BLEED JUST TO KNOW YOUR ALIVE….she slowly opened her eyes and saw that the room was well-lighted, she wanted to turn off the light so the world wont see her, as they might not understand --- but she chose not to, for she felt so afraid being alone in the dark …

… she heard the next song played “I’LL BE”… just cant help herself but sobbed…bit her lower lip afraid that she might cry out loud… in her recollection was a shadow of a man full of good memories and togetherness, whispering to her the same lyrics she’d been hearing in the song …I’ll be your cryin’ shoulder…

.. river of tears has flown in her deep-set eyes , she asked: “was it fate that was teasing her solitude?” .., for she deliberately knew that she is all by herself in this moment of despondency..