blame it to the fallin' rain

busy day is it
or was it?
i haven't noticed the time
 it just passed
 and when it hit the hour of 5
 i saw twilight
that means
its time to go
and so i gathered my things up and rushed to the ladder
for i know
He stood there at the blocks
as usual
standing, smiling, looking my way, waiting...
and then i reached to the treshold
 stirring eagerly,
as i am seeing HIM clearly in a distance
like a god perfectly statued
a face you would always wish to see
a cheeks you would always want to touch
a lips you would always longed to kiss
that's HIM i whispered to myself
i motioned to get close
 but as i get nearer
 HIS stance is slowly fading
disappearing
in a panic state i glanced sideways
i saw familiar place
pointing same direction
i know i've been here
but then i stopped
coz when i looked again into the blocks
 i saw an empty space
 and to realize
i'm having an illusion with a vivid memory..
i stared for a moment
wishing my eyes is not telling me right
but when i lift my head
it struck into my mind
that
seeing HIM here
 happened yesterday
He is somewhere else Today
and will never be here Tomorrow....
so i
take aback
walk away
 and 
blink..
one more blink
it must be the fallin' rain
touches my cheeks?
i'm not sure...

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 PAIN IN MY HEART
 Arnel Pineda

TIME

there's so many hours in a day and i missed you every single second of it...


i haven't known time so sweet and precious yet so hasty but the times spent with you...


and, i haven't known time the longest and so sluggish but the times spent with out you...


now that we're apart, i've known time in eternity...

time..when you have it, make the most....
when it's gone, it can never  be yours, again...

leaving and letting go

everytime someone has to leave by your side, out of sight and  out of touch for some reasons beyond your control, it always ends up breaking your heart like a glass shattered into pieces. and you being the one left behind would feel as if the whole world has turned their backs against you.

you held yourself to compose and embrace your fate to console, that all people who comes in and out of your life has reasons for going and leaving, and make yourself believe that in this life, everything happens has  purpose whether it happened by accident or intentional.

so it happened. they've come but they're gone and you're all alone. just give your self a little time to heal, a little space to move and a little air to breathe in, until then you can unchain your heart from the knots of the promises of forever.

put away the pain. until then, you'll find yourself again.

learning the art of letting go...

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THE ART OF LETTING GO - MIKAILA

hard time to forever

i'm having a hard time laying my thoughts recently, must have been that few days from now i'll be putting my views into new and different perspective, leaving behind the old and familiar things and routines in my daily waking hour...as the clock ticks it rings to me that i'm running short of time to do the things that need to be done, people and places that need to come and see, must have things thats been overlooked or discounted but mind it no more as to strive is futile. for the part that wasn't achieved nor get done, i'll leave it to fate and the good luck. time pass inevitably and i wish i could hold it to stop, so i would stay forever this way,but i won't either, for i know i wouldn't be happy anyway...it's just the thought of letting go and moving on thats hard to own up..

Je t'aime pour toujours...

i'm learning the art of letting go...

as i watched you sleep, i saw
..you are just like a god, sleeping an inch away from me..
can't help but freeze and stare..
familiarizing every contour on your face, as i might forget how it looks like as days go by
without you....

i am hearing the sounds of your breath, storing it in the deepest recess of my memory, so later, when i recollect..i would remember it was the sweetest music i've ever heard...

i love you so much baby,
but i'm letting you go
for in reality, i know we can never be ...

FOREVER..? we could only be
..FRIENDS..., that is