Big Big World(with lyrics)

her eyes won't seems to say, how much tears it shed today
her smiles won't even tell she's hurting deep down in there..

she may not shown what's real with what she feels, and
she wished someone else would tell her
to feel better,
big girl...

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*Chorus*
I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

*V1*
I can see the first leafs falling
It's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
Like the way I'm feeling inside

*Chorus*
I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

*V2*
Outside it's no raining
And tears are falling from my eyes
Why did it have to happen
Why did it all have to end

*Chorus*
I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

*V3*
I have your arms around me
Warm like fire
But when I open my eyes......
Your gone

*Chorus*
I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

*Repeat Chorus*

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing
If u leave me
But I do
Feel I will
Miss u much
miss u much

HEALING

HEALING - i gently return to equilibrium, nurtured by my well-spring of patience and peace..

MY REFLECTION : i know i've made a lot of false move before by being impatient and impulsive, but through the years i have learned my lesson, lessons from those mistakes, mistakes that need not to be repeated, gladly, amidst the struggles, pains and heartaches, i've maintained my sensibility and humor, i haven't lost my sense of balance, and i learned the virtue of patience and serenity with my inner self.

i'm learning the art of letting go...

as i watched you sleep, i saw
..you are just like a god, sleeping an inch away from me..
can't help but freeze and stare..
familiarizing every contour on your face, as i might forget how it looks like as days go by
without you....

i am hearing the sounds of your breath, storing it in the deepest recess of my memory, so later, when i recollect..i would remember it was the sweetest music i've ever heard...

i love you so much baby,
but i'm letting you go
for in reality, i know we can never be ...

FOREVER..? we could only be
..FRIENDS..., that is

I'LL PAINT YOUR MEMORY IN HEAVEN..

..and so he led to the doorway,
and without looking back he left,
tryin' to get hold of the tears in his eyes it conceals...

...but baby, goodbye--it has to be
...and memories is all we gonna be...

YOUR MEMORY,
your face,
your kiss
and sweet embrace
i'll paint it in the sky, up there in heaven..
so everytime i looked up,
night and day,
i can see you
looking and smiling at me tenderly...
that look in your eyes as if saying
I AM YOURS, for ever...

..but baby, it can never be.
and all we got is a memory
to a HAPPY JOURNEY!

--f<3d--

cheers..

CHEERS...

... for the laughters and tears

... for the LOVE and FRIENDSHIP

... for our togetherness

... and for the memories that would last a lifetime...

FREEZE THE MOMENT

..i wish i could freeze this moment, and we'll stay forever... together "IN LOVE"..

feel my love

boy: i'm drifting to sleep...
girl: i'll sing you a lovesong..hmmm
boy: i wish i could hear you..
girl: you don't need to hear it, just feel it...
close your eyes, and put your hand near your heart...
boy: i'm feeling it now..


girl: (whispered in the air) "I LOVE YOU!" "I LOVE YOU EVEN BEFORE I KNEW YOU.."

master your fear

...deal with your failure and learn to master your fear...

the missing piece

…you are "one" of the missing pieces to complete me….

MUSICS ON HER SOLITARY NIGHTS …

…one night she was awakened by the sound of music, “I WANNA KNOW WHAT LOVE IS”..it keeps ringing in her ears (..so she figured it was just her ipod’s humming)..she thought she heard HIM singing beside her, coz the artist and His voice sound so alike (..is she dreaming?)

… the next song played “IRIS”, the lyrics ragged her.. she touched the other side of her bed and it was empty, so she pulled on the shawl to wrap her wintriness, she suddenly felt cold then, she embraced herself so tight....and realized that it was her solitude that chillin’ her ….then she heard goo goo dolls says..YEA, YOU BLEED JUST TO KNOW YOUR ALIVE….she slowly opened her eyes and saw that the room was well-lighted, she wanted to turn off the light so the world wont see her, as they might not understand --- but she chose not to, for she felt so afraid being alone in the dark …

… she heard the next song played “I’LL BE”… just cant help herself but sobbed…bit her lower lip afraid that she might cry out loud… in her recollection was a shadow of a man full of good memories and togetherness, whispering to her the same lyrics she’d been hearing in the song …I’ll be your cryin’ shoulder…

.. river of tears has flown in her deep-set eyes , she asked: “was it fate that was teasing her solitude?” .., for she deliberately knew that she is all by herself in this moment of despondency..