blame it to the fallin' rain

busy day is it
or was it?
i haven't noticed the time
 it just passed
 and when it hit the hour of 5
 i saw twilight
that means
its time to go
and so i gathered my things up and rushed to the ladder
for i know
He stood there at the blocks
as usual
standing, smiling, looking my way, waiting...
and then i reached to the treshold
 stirring eagerly,
as i am seeing HIM clearly in a distance
like a god perfectly statued
a face you would always wish to see
a cheeks you would always want to touch
a lips you would always longed to kiss
that's HIM i whispered to myself
i motioned to get close
 but as i get nearer
 HIS stance is slowly fading
disappearing
in a panic state i glanced sideways
i saw familiar place
pointing same direction
i know i've been here
but then i stopped
coz when i looked again into the blocks
 i saw an empty space
 and to realize
i'm having an illusion with a vivid memory..
i stared for a moment
wishing my eyes is not telling me right
but when i lift my head
it struck into my mind
that
seeing HIM here
 happened yesterday
He is somewhere else Today
and will never be here Tomorrow....
so i
take aback
walk away
 and 
blink..
one more blink
it must be the fallin' rain
touches my cheeks?
i'm not sure...

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 PAIN IN MY HEART
 Arnel Pineda

TIME

there's so many hours in a day and i missed you every single second of it...


i haven't known time so sweet and precious yet so hasty but the times spent with you...


and, i haven't known time the longest and so sluggish but the times spent with out you...


now that we're apart, i've known time in eternity...

time..when you have it, make the most....
when it's gone, it can never  be yours, again...

hard time to forever

i'm having a hard time laying my thoughts recently, must have been that few days from now i'll be putting my views into new and different perspective, leaving behind the old and familiar things and routines in my daily waking hour...as the clock ticks it rings to me that i'm running short of time to do the things that need to be done, people and places that need to come and see, must have things thats been overlooked or discounted but mind it no more as to strive is futile. for the part that wasn't achieved nor get done, i'll leave it to fate and the good luck. time pass inevitably and i wish i could hold it to stop, so i would stay forever this way,but i won't either, for i know i wouldn't be happy anyway...it's just the thought of letting go and moving on thats hard to own up..

Je t'aime pour toujours...

Big Big World(with lyrics)

her eyes won't seems to say, how much tears it shed today
her smiles won't even tell she's hurting deep down in there..

she may not shown what's real with what she feels, and
she wished someone else would tell her
to feel better,
big girl...

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*Chorus*
I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

*V1*
I can see the first leafs falling
It's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
Like the way I'm feeling inside

*Chorus*
I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

*V2*
Outside it's no raining
And tears are falling from my eyes
Why did it have to happen
Why did it all have to end

*Chorus*
I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

*V3*
I have your arms around me
Warm like fire
But when I open my eyes......
Your gone

*Chorus*
I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

*Repeat Chorus*

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing
If u leave me
But I do
Feel I will
Miss u much
miss u much