sneaked - out and caught

have you ever tried sneaking out and caught?
well, wednesday is the most boring day i had since monday, LOL
in the morning after whispering  goodbye to my samsung II  and to my  pillow, got up in bed and prep to work,
at work there's nothing much to do but to kill  time to starve..

after awakening feeling empty in a nap, i looked around and guessed that the boss next door is watching tv as i heard the volume too loud, while the other boss is asleep at the next building.

humdrum as i am, i pulled out jb for company and we sneaked out in the four corners of our cube, and in a rush we were able to got out before the bosses would notice our absence.

while on the road riding in tandem and mental noting where to go and what to do, the rain suddenly caught us in the middle, and we've got nowhere to hide so we took the consequences as we were guilty as charged.

9/11 - a day to remember

9/11 has long been a tragic history in the life of every mankind. as who would ever forget the suicide attack made by the heartless terrorist with an end aim of destroying and burning pathways to world peace.

9/11 is indeed a day to remember, with same day last year, i recollect that this day was marked as an extraordinary day in my journey, as to others this day, their lives has ended, literally, while to others theirs has just begun, changed, renewed or reliven.

as to me 9/11 is everything ...as it was the beginning of all the first time experiences in my life and at the same time an ending of some dreams painful and blissful.

beginning - 9/11/10 - from a naivete, non-complaining, gullible, obsessive-compulsive and intuitive - introvert person who built walls to ward off people coming near the bench of my being i turned into slightly objective, risk taker and got out with that protective shelf i built,  i've explored, wandered and defiant to name a few. most of all, i've welcomed dream and dreaming with, found a wandering soulmate,  and pursued together mr. happy-ness and juggled with the ms. rare.

--this was also the day of my first open water experience in scuba diving, the life underwater --was the experience that i would never trade for anything and so with the thing that comes with it, i never planned nor expected it would happened and with arms wide open i embraced all the risk it entails. it didn't ask for my life once, but twice, thrice and more, yet it didn't not caused me to take aback. cause i believe that life is worth taking the risk.    


the ending - 9/11/11 - the trouble with finding happy-ness is the painful fact that it never lasts... i have known it long that in time comes goodbye, but i never knew it would be on the day with the same day when it begins... i hadn't had enough of having and giving, but time has not been my friend., it didn't gave me the chances i needed. and today, i turned and walked away from dreaming. waved goodbye to the soul in my mirror with love as my only provision. 

 9/11.

coffee for the gloomy

WHAT MAKES IT HARD TO GET BY

THIS GLOOMY DAY

 AND AWAY

IS THE THOUGHT THAT EACH MORNING

 when I wake up,  

I want to see your face lying next to mine,

look straight in your eyes,

 touch your cheeks,

and hold your hand,

then, everything would feels okey

when we had our cup of coffee …

me, pink L, my pen and coffee to ease the gloomy...

cant smile without you

i'm feelin' blue,
and it's because of you
i'm letting you go
but please take me with you
because baby, i just can't smile without you....

i feel sad when you're sad, i feel glad when you're glad...
and baby, I just can't SMILE without YOU..

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Ah

You know I can't smile without you

I can't smile without you

I can't laugh, and I can't sleep

I don't even talk to people I meet

And I feel sad when you're sad

I feel glad when you're glad

And you must know what I'm goin' thru

I just can't smile, without you

You came along just like a song

You brightened my day

Who'd believe you were part of a dream

That only seemed light years away

And you know I can't smile without you

I can't smile without you

And you must know what I'm goin' thru

I just can't smile, without you

Some people say the happiness wave

Is somethin' that's hard to find

Into the new leavin' the old behind me

And I feel sad when you're sad

I feel glad when you're glad

And you must know what I'm goin' thru

I just can't smile, without you

Into the new, leaving the old behind me

And I feel sad when you're sad

I feel glad when you're glad

And you must know what I'm goin' thru

I just can't smile, without you

You must know what I'm goin' thru

I just can't smile, without you

"Don't Give Up On Us Baby" {lyrics} by David Soul and music video

...i was on my leisure afternoon at the mondojuice, alimall, yesterday and tried their hot banana buzz tea, this time trying something new to my taste, to crack the monotony of the being "no-one-else" but me. 


...perplexed to resign with the fervor of a dreamer, this song suddenly played in the air as if giving me a clue....

..to live just by the day!

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

Don't give up on us, baby

Don't make the wrong seem right

The future isn't just one night

It's written in the moonlight

Painted on the stars

We can't change ours

Don't give up on us, baby

We're still worth one more try

I know we put a last one by

Just for a rainy evening

When maybe stars are few

Don't give up on us, I know

We can still come through

I really lost my head last night

You've got a right to start believing

There's still a little love left, even so

Don't give up on us, baby

Lord knows we've come this far

Can't we stay the way we are?

The angel and the dreamer

Who sometimes plays a fool

Don't give up on us, I know
we can still come through 

Don't give up on us, baby
Don't give up on us, baby

Something New In My Life - stephen bishop

morning comes marks a new day to step on wards..
unlike with the past two mornings i started my day with a beep
but today, i would rather begin it with a shush
it's Saturday and i choose not to dash, it's just that my eyes seem to jut,
that was last night whimpers with my indigo...

was it? or was it the dream that i built which i know it would never come true...
and now, i wanted something new...




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i guess i wanted something new in my life
a new key to fit a new door
to wake and see a different view in my life
the one i've been waiting for

dreams like everyone i've had a few in my life
who knew that this one would come true in my lfe
i knew the moment when you touched me
you touched me

you're like a sudden breeze that blew in my life
a new face, a new smile, new song
and now i know i wanted you in my life all along

i guess, i must have saved an empty place in my heart
for you to come and fill this space in my heart
that long before i said i loved you
i love you

whatever happens this is true in my life
when all the springs have come and gone
whatever dance i made or do in my life
whatever else that i may do in my life
you'll always be something new in my life
from now on

i know there always will be you in my life
from now on...

MUSICS ON HER SOLITARY NIGHTS …

…one night she was awakened by the sound of music, “I WANNA KNOW WHAT LOVE IS”..it keeps ringing in her ears (..so she figured it was just her ipod’s humming)..she thought she heard HIM singing beside her, coz the artist and His voice sound so alike (..is she dreaming?)

… the next song played “IRIS”, the lyrics ragged her.. she touched the other side of her bed and it was empty, so she pulled on the shawl to wrap her wintriness, she suddenly felt cold then, she embraced herself so tight....and realized that it was her solitude that chillin’ her ….then she heard goo goo dolls says..YEA, YOU BLEED JUST TO KNOW YOUR ALIVE….she slowly opened her eyes and saw that the room was well-lighted, she wanted to turn off the light so the world wont see her, as they might not understand --- but she chose not to, for she felt so afraid being alone in the dark …

… she heard the next song played “I’LL BE”… just cant help herself but sobbed…bit her lower lip afraid that she might cry out loud… in her recollection was a shadow of a man full of good memories and togetherness, whispering to her the same lyrics she’d been hearing in the song …I’ll be your cryin’ shoulder…

.. river of tears has flown in her deep-set eyes , she asked: “was it fate that was teasing her solitude?” .., for she deliberately knew that she is all by herself in this moment of despondency..